Friday, March 01, 2024
Where do I even begin again. I am typing this in my own house, finally having my own space for my own family. A proud place I finally call my own.
kids have grown too, Amirul is 24, still in 2nd year of SUSS, Amira graduating from Poly soon, Adina, a year away from PSLE.
I am still working with SPRIM, under FIBRONOSTICS now. Just had my 9th year anniversary with the company. Alhamdulillah. its been good. Got my self a room with a view now.
Tuesday, December 10, 2019
so much have happened, since i joined SPRIM in FEB 2015, blessings are bountiful. I manage to advance myself every year, in title & rewards. I am now Operations Director - who would have thought.
Adina is now 6, going to Primary 1 next year. Amirul is doing his internship in Shopee & Mira is still a struggling teenager trying to find a foothold - will let her find it in her own time & space.
within these years I have steadily gained almost 10kg as well. Not as lithe as I used to be, not satisfied with myself but still happy.
we are still under the same roof as mak & bak, at this moment still renting out our Senja Rd house. Emi have been kind enough to let us use his Megane for the last 2 years & now we are on the crossroads of deciding, if we are & if we do, what will the next car will be.
Tomorrow will be having Xmas party at the new office, a first function since we moved early Dec.In 2 weeks, we'll be off flying to Penang for a short family vacay. Can't wait to wind down.
Friday, July 22, 2016
scarily unbelievable...as im dusting the dust off my blog. has it been already almost 3 yrs since i pen my thoughts in it?
its the 17th Syawal today, we already hit the 2nd half of Hari Raya.Most visiting are done apart from some friends. We covered as much as we could in the 2 weekends that we had a car - even that we missed some houses as my husband would rather spend more time with those that really mattered then those fair-weathered friends - that i totally dont mind.
I feel like i should cramp all the stories that i have collate in this post but i figured, lets just talk abt what's going on NOW.
its almost 1 yr & 5mths since i joined SPRIM. The office is great (wish i could say the same abt the bosses :p) the people are great, made some good friends & lunch kakis. the location is great - 15min away from home, i shouldn't complain. But work always feel like a routine now. Getting each day, looking forward to the end of day, dreading Monday, excited for Friday. I guess i shouldn't complain as im lucky, i know, others had it worse. I still miss CE now & then. Im always online with Migz, always up-to-date on what they are busy with , always harbouring hope that i will join them back again one day. (soon i hope, never mind the distance) I will just see how it goes with the CE & how they stabilise before i make my next move - meanwhile, i will look forward to the year end holidays & yearly bonus.
Adina is all of 3 years old now, wise beyond her years, a tough mak-nenek. She will be in Darussalam Nursery next year just like her bubu & Baijan. She's finally weaned off BF since Feb-Mar, painful at first for her & me (more at the Abah's reaction than anything else) at times, when she dont sleep well & need more than a pat for comfort, she will make a weak attempt at request, lesser now as time goes by.
My first prince & Princess will be facing their big challenge in the next few mths, O'levels & PSLE. oh, i must mention that my son gave me a nice white peck on the cheek after making him his requested pasta & chicken chop for Iftar)im proud of him i must say. Always room for improvement but very proud of how he turned out to be.
Mira is turning into a mini-me, growing into a beautiful young lady, as many could attest. stubborn too, like me. still dwindling between a child & young woman, im almost afraid to see my reflection in her. still very interested in baking & for that i thank Shahidah who looks almost ready to take her under her wings anytime.
My other half has been diligently getting himself immersed in Islamic knowledge. nowadays i fall asleep with the lullaby of his ngaji. he even voiced out his intention for Umrah next year - very proud of my man. His Kranji was the west zone champion, again - for 2 years i think. on teh financial end, its good Alhamdulillah, not great but enough for us & all around us. we are still renting out our Bt Panjang apt - that extra income helps. no car for almost 2 years now - missing our mobility, but we get by with rentals & short car-loans from the siblings - something we are forever grateful for.
My back pain (Sacroiliac Joint Injury) is getting better. it comes & goes but at least i dont have to depend on pain killers all the time now. Pei Fen was nice enough to get me a backrest for my office chair to alleviate any pain - u see these are the kind of things i will miss if i leave this place.
We are also in the midst of preparing for Eli's wedding in Dec (finally!) Kelvin is now Isa Abdullah. As a big sister who have seen her gone through so much, i am really looking forward to the wedding...
Its Friday today, the bosses are in France & Australia, I have work pending but as usual, dont know where to start.Just looking forward to the weekend where i can meet family & friends to chill - my greatest source of comfort, always.
Friday, July 18, 2014
today is the 20th of Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah we are left with about 9 days of fasting. this year i notice the days pass by very fast. as for the past few years our family will buka at our house, all 15 of us & with 1 additional this yr in the form of Sue. Hakim's GF :) it just got me thinking that no matter how tiring i have to clean up after dinner, i always look forward to breakfasting every night. i also wonder & cherish these times as seeing how frail Mak & Bak is, i wouldnt know how many more years I will get to have this.
on a sombre note. another tragedy struck MAS today.barely 4 mths after the MH370 tragedy, MH17 is shot down on Ukranian airspace. All 295 aboard perished. I heard there were infants too. :( tragedy after tragedy. and the Gaza crisis is not even over yet too. for the past week i was always brought to tears seeing pictures of children who have to suffer thru the war & parents who refused to let the body of their dead child go.only HE knows best why this is happening.
at work, i am currently working on closing project for RSAF. their mobile exhibition that features our photobooth & launch video animation is due next Friday 25th July.
All 3 of my angels are growing up swiftly too. Amirul is improving well in sch & i hope he continuoous that way. Once in a while, like Amira, we have to jolt them back to reality when they get carried away with the mobile gadgets like iphones & ipads. Amira is now busy with extra activities like ukelele for national day & info comm club apart from the remedial lessons & extra classes. she took up info comm as she wanted to be a designer like me :)
Adina is growing up fast too.at 17mth & 17 days today. she has started singing twinkle twinkle little star, itsy bitsy spide & many more mothergoose nursery rhymes.she still breastfeeds whan im at home (Alhamdulillah) & even though the polyclinic will quip at every checkup how 'small' she is, she is one healthy, active & smart baby.
ill be starting baking hari raya kuih this coming weekend with long as always. will start with suji, followed by makmur, the next weekend :) we painted 2 walls & amir is left with 2 more walls to go. preparations are very simple this year. just got myself miu miu shoes online just because the kate spade gold slides i bought last year was too tight. otherwise, as today is Friday, will be looking forward to the weekend & Hari Raya. oh, & this year's Hari Raya will be the first without Tok tina :(
Friday, February 21, 2014
So my youngest bulb has already turned one...as of today, you, Adina Sufya is all of 1yr & 19days old. You have started walking, albeit wobbly still, but loving the freedom that you have just gained. We had your first birthday celebration together with Baijan's Khatam Ceremony, although I feel that it was really Nani's event that day seeing how she thoroughly enjoyed the day with her friends. It turned out to be quite an event as all my friends who came, claimed. You were quite an angel, good-behaved most of the time until towards the end when your lack of rest & sleep took a toll on you. It was an emotional day for Baijan & for your abah & i. I didnt think we would be so emotional & proud seeing how your Baijan have grown & gone this far. Your Bubu have been a very very responsible sister taking care of your every needs even forsaking her own time & studies at times. You are clearly very dependant on her for your needs but will always turn to Baijan for comfort & have some quirky brotherly fun.
As for me, I have just completed a whirlwind of Airshow mm projects for ST. I did spend many a nights in the office often only seeing you back home asleep although. As for the past years, your Abah is now amidst his inter-school tournament with Kranji Primary School. He is doing very very well so far, only losing 1 game of the 10 or so matches. I think they will at least be among the top-3 of the west zone. But it is always very satisfactory seeing your end-product of your swet & tears sitting pretty in the exhibition hall of the Airshow. I even managed to attend the airshow & caught the Korean black Eagles amazing Aerobatic skills
So Adina, at 1 yr 19days I am always proud of your achievements & milestones,most importantly I am still so so glad that you still find comfort & love breastfeeding as much as I still love staring in your eyes when im cradling you...
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
This was me at 38. taken 2 yrs ago at our family photography session at SBG. I turn 40 today. not much has changed - outwardly - but internally i bet the changes are vast & fast. Apart for a new 9mth old bulb, the muscles are more achy & i do get tired more easily.
It was dreaded .Quite Awful for three or so months heading up to the big 4-0.
Friends who had not turned it yet were saddened.
Those who had were happy. It's a great club, they shouted; come join!
I thought the latter of the friends were nuts. I grew angry with them and sullen with myself. FORTY? That meant I was in college half of my life ago.
However, as I approached the big day with hesitation, I began to realize a few things about life. I thought I'd talk about motherhood at forty, growing older, being a woman, and finding happiness.
1. When you are young, you believe you have to do it all. Everything. Now. When you turn forty you realize some things are important, other things might be nice, but some things you really don't need to do at all. And that's fine.
2. At forty you see that probably, most likely, half of your life is over - but you still have another half to live. And you realize the importance of needing to live it now.
3. I don't care. It's a new attitude. It came upon me quickly. Suddenly the things that seemed oh so important really aren't that important. The things that are, like my children and husband, my family and friends, myself, are the things I will focus my attention on now. Those other things, those little things, that ate up a lot of time with worry, will be gone.
4. I don't have to climb mountains. It would be nice, trust me, and I still hope I have some umph left in me to do so, but it is not the most important thing. I can see through my forty year old eyes that the important things are the small things: the touch of my daughter's hand, cozying up next to my 3 children before bedtime, Ben & Jerry New York Fudge by the tub-loads (who cares what they do to the waist, I'm forty!)
5. Life is short. Enjoy it. I don't feel I have to move mountains, now, but I do feel I have to take an opportunity each day to live life to its fullest. It passes so quickly. While my body is able and my mind is willing I want to explore, kiss my kids, dance with my husband, spend time with my mother & sisters, have belly laugh with my friends.
6. It's just a number. Really. I dreaded it, but now that it is here it is just another number, like 35, or 39. And honestly I wouldn't want to travel backwards. I have everything I want right now.
7. Which leads me to this - I'm home. Wherever I may be, I feel at home. I've worked hard and now it's time to enjoy the fruits of that. I'm comfortable with myself, I have a supportive family, and I love where I am now. I have a husband that loves me more than i can ever imagine & children who i can climb any mountian for....so being 40 aint so bad after all....
Thursday, October 24, 2013
So much happened in the last few mths. You, Adina are all of 8 almost 9mths. Still breasfeeding - though not from the bottle still (although your Abah did call earlier to say that you just finished the expressed milk i brought back yesterday from your yellow Magna Cup). Earlier this week, we met up with your Baijan's teachers. He didnt do so well this year end- as a matter of fact, it deteriorated. Abah was upset. Confiscated his iphone which he deemed was the culprit & vowed to remove him from the Student Council. So i had a talk with him. he didn't know why he did so bad. He was nothing short of exemplery in school - that i am extremely proud of. Adored by teachers & friends, only his results pulls him away from all these adulations. We talked - he liked SC - a lot, something that he knows he can perform well in, something he can excel. So i told him, then something's got to give. in order to stay, do well. then we talked. you know Adina, my heart broke thousand pieces whenever i see any of my children in such sad situation. How abah would reprimand you guys - i cried my heart out - inwardly. I wish things are simple & smooth. but they are not. we cannot be always having a good jolly time without thinking of the repercussions. Same with Baijan & your Bubu. Your bubu is another tricky chick. She's as bright as the sunshine, well mannered, so easy to please but can be overbearing at times. Her results dipped tremendously this yr - quite a shock since she's been doing so well the the past 2 years. same thing, too much freedom we think. so abah took away her iphone too. then she was caught lying about doing her assesments - worse, she lied about lying til Abah presented the evidence in her face.i was beyond sad. i think she is more sacred to get the assesements wrong - a slight redeeming reason at least for me though it is still wrong in my books. where did i go wrong - i keep asking myself. but i know it is a ritual or rite of passage that we must go through to learn & grow. to see you guys grow amidst the challenges & tribulations. also while im facing challenges at work & financially too for Abah & me.its not easy. never easy for anyone. i always tell myself there are others in a far more worse situation than ours. we are still blessed with you guys & all our loved ones around. we still have a roof over our heads & our love for each other knows no bounds although i still think Baijan still has a way more to go while communicating with your Bubu :p
you are still an angel my dear Adina. already crawling around the house like its your world playground. not enough with that, you are now attempting to stand with one hands & eager to take a step or two on your own. one thing for sure you are one very determined girl.your current favourite ride is Mak's market trolley. never mind that u have to stand all the way, never mind that the ride is not smooth, u somehow found enjoyment in the trolley. Mak & Bak would put you in there & walk you around the corridor & carpark downstairs. we have upgraded your cybex carseat pram to the seater. u seemed happy with it. atleast you get to see whats in front & around you. also more comfortable to bring you to the shops & playground with.