Tuesday, October 06, 2009
a new phase, a new beginning...a new phase for me, a new phase for the Bakar Lamin family...My beloved grandfather passed away peacefully on 2nd Syawal this year, 21st September. Even though it was a long-time coming, it was still a shock nevertherless, & he is still sorely missed by us all. It was heartbreaking to see my grandmother, his wife of 72 years mourning for him. The love & life they shared - I would feel so lucky if I get to experience even half of the great love they share.A truly inspiring love story I must say. It started me thinking how I would deal if my other half were to leave first...I shudder at the mere thought of it...So that makes our Hari Raya celebrations shorter than we already imagine it would be. We knew somehow the celebration will not be as festive as the past years, what with the mother-in-law's condition & all. With my grandpa's passing, it makes the Hari Raya period shorter & more modest than ever, only visiting those important & closest to us. But I am more than glad to do the modest do, saving the us the leg cramps & spare my lithesome tiresome body :)
As of today, its been a little over a month since I started my full-time vocation as a PM. & I am starting to like it day by day- although I still do not enjoy dealing with production team with attitude problem, its is something I look forward to work everyday, looking forward to see the progress of my pet projects.But I am enjoying the company of my fellow colleagues some as young as 21 & 22 - oh gawd, how old I must feel now :0
I guess its good that I am liking my job, which makes it hard to miss the comfortable lifestyle that I have led for the past 5 yrs. At least I do not dread at the mere thought of going to work or keep flipping my watch everyhour to see when the day will end. At least I've gotten the phase of missing my kids terribly & missing the precious time that we spend during the quiet afternoons. It also helps that I get to date my chummums during lunch once in a while to 'cure' the 'missingness'...
I guess its all good for now. Makes me feel that I can still contribute. Moreover my former bosses have told the office people about my 'vast' working experience & somehow, I already got that respect by mere association which makes the working experience more than bearable to get by day by day...
The only thing I sorely miss is my K-Drama & empty malls in quiet afternoons, which the husband assure I can get back to 5 years later :) so definitely something to look forward to...