Thursday, May 19, 2011
Shall I first do the honours of brushing off the cobwebs & dust? :)
I shall not start ranting about how time flies yada yada yada, as I have absolutely no excuse why I have been missing from this blog of mine.
Yes, its already been almost 2 years since I have worked full time. During this course of 2 years, Amira officially started her 'school-life', which means in no time, I will have that talk about birds & bees & probably will have frustrating conversations about her hanging on the phone for too long. How fast she's grown these diva beauty of mine. She has grown so much it scares me too much. But in the good side, she now makes a good shopping buddy & someone I can seek opinion from about shoes clothes & bags. I remembered how depressed 1 was about returning to work full-time & then another time after that about her starting school in the afternoon session without me having to see her off everyday. I am still not used to that idea though.Of course I still wish time is on our hands. But this girl, she has good shoulders over her head(yes, I'm a proud mama)her independence streak I know is a chip of the old block. While im pretty excited to see her all grown up, I know her daddy will miss her as his lil girl....
My son is now all of 11. He is more independent, his personality shining through, a very responsible chap I am so very proud to call my own.Next year he'll be taking his PSLE. Then the next big leap to being a teen. OMG I am going to be a teen-mom!
The husband & I are getting by, not as much luxury holidays as we'd love to have but we still have our little breaks made more fun with road-trips together with Malik & Shireen. Yes, we have grown quite close over the past years. I think sealed more by the fact that we have seen each other through good & bad times.Hope the good times are here to stay :)
I am still taking day by day working full time, filled full with ups & downs in my stride(well, more downs nowadays for me).I never remembered having to work with head-full of burden, constantly worrying & being emotional affected that it could even drive me to tears. Maybe its way beyond my comfort zone I have known before, maybe it is something i have to go through if only to make me stronger.And throughout the tumultous time, my pillar of strength in the form of my husband have been my constant form of comfort, at times a bit extreme, just so I could make it right. But as the wonderful man he is, he'll be there for me, without fail, in my tears & tantrums to see that I get it through unscathed.
Career horizon have been somewhat challenging lately. I am faced with a cross-road that i dread having to grapple with. I've blown a couple of chances & opportunities mainly due to my inherent 'Ms too-nice' personality.But I always believe that when one door closes another one will open.We have been very much blessed. Even with the husband not working full time, never a day goes by that we went hungry & we still have a good roof over our head & the loving support of family members in the form of siblings,parents,uncles & auntie, Alhamdulillah....
One thing I know, everyday is a surprise, there is always something new, expect or unexpected, good or bad depending on how I choose to take it.But at the end of the day, there's always the lovely faces I get to see-be them sleeping or awake- before I close my eyes everynight. And as my husband say, no matter how tough & ridiculous my day is, just remember that you always come back to the lovely arms of your family leaving everything behind for the night....
