Thursday, January 05, 2012
Hello 2012...where has 2011 gone to?of the many decisions, experiences & misadventures i've had for the past year, i have been at my lowest-low (career-wise), many-a-times i feel like giving-up, countless unnecessary tears flow freely, at the end of it all, im still here standing. with continual support of husband & family. the only reason i know why i make myself go through this again & again...
so a new husband have emerged,all new 10kg less of the old him. now he's almost a freak. read:push-ups,sit-ups, reading calorie counts/intakes,numerous shopping trips...i think he looks damn good now...see...
Both kids are in the morning session now.which means i have absolutely no excuse to sleep-in :( amirul will be taking his PSLE this year, OMG is he already 12?? felt like just yesterday that i experienced my 1st c-section, cradling him after 30min of ops with tears rolling down my eyes.up til, now, in between there were of course more tears, 1st stpes, 1st camp, 1st over-nighter,1st solo-trip with friends - yes i'm drama mama like that.oh my, how fast this boy have grown...
As for that lil diva girl who's turning 8, she's getting smarter by the day, way smarter than i expected - vainer by the day too. guess where she inherits the trait from. we know that she'll be more than a handful, more than the brother we reckon but she surprised us in her own ways, more often unexpectedly. I wonder & look forward to the lil surprises she has in store for us- all good i hope.
just the other day, i realised that with each passing year that we, the kids have grown our parents have grown too - much more than we last remembered.
im determined to make my appreciation for both parents more inherent this year.we dont know how long we'll have with them - everyday i am so grateful & feel blessed, though i dont show it all the time. they are touching 70 & their energy & abundance of love for us,the kids, have never ever waned-not one bit. I know at times i am too absorbed in my job, my family & just my ownself,so i know what i wanna do this year :)
shall not have mere new resolutions - i have a list of wanting to do for the year, Insyaallah, by end year ill see if i surprise my self again.