Thursday, October 24, 2013
So much happened in the last few mths. You, Adina are all of 8 almost 9mths. Still breasfeeding - though not from the bottle still (although your Abah did call earlier to say that you just finished the expressed milk i brought back yesterday from your yellow Magna Cup). Earlier this week, we met up with your Baijan's teachers. He didnt do so well this year end- as a matter of fact, it deteriorated. Abah was upset. Confiscated his iphone which he deemed was the culprit & vowed to remove him from the Student Council. So i had a talk with him. he didn't know why he did so bad. He was nothing short of exemplery in school - that i am extremely proud of. Adored by teachers & friends, only his results pulls him away from all these adulations. We talked - he liked SC - a lot, something that he knows he can perform well in, something he can excel. So i told him, then something's got to give. in order to stay, do well. then we talked. you know Adina, my heart broke thousand pieces whenever i see any of my children in such sad situation. How abah would reprimand you guys - i cried my heart out - inwardly. I wish things are simple & smooth. but they are not. we cannot be always having a good jolly time without thinking of the repercussions. Same with Baijan & your Bubu. Your bubu is another tricky chick. She's as bright as the sunshine, well mannered, so easy to please but can be overbearing at times. Her results dipped tremendously this yr - quite a shock since she's been doing so well the the past 2 years. same thing, too much freedom we think. so abah took away her iphone too. then she was caught lying about doing her assesments - worse, she lied about lying til Abah presented the evidence in her face.i was beyond sad. i think she is more sacred to get the assesements wrong - a slight redeeming reason at least for me though it is still wrong in my books. where did i go wrong - i keep asking myself. but i know it is a ritual or rite of passage that we must go through to learn & grow. to see you guys grow amidst the challenges & tribulations. also while im facing challenges at work & financially too for Abah & me.its not easy. never easy for anyone. i always tell myself there are others in a far more worse situation than ours. we are still blessed with you guys & all our loved ones around. we still have a roof over our heads & our love for each other knows no bounds although i still think Baijan still has a way more to go while communicating with your Bubu :p you are still an angel my dear Adina. already crawling around the house like its your world playground. not enough with that, you are now attempting to stand with one hands & eager to take a step or two on your own. one thing for sure you are one very determined girl.your current favourite ride is Mak's market trolley. never mind that u have to stand all the way, never mind that the ride is not smooth, u somehow found enjoyment in the trolley. Mak & Bak would put you in there & walk you around the corridor & carpark downstairs. we have upgraded your cybex carseat pram to the seater. u seemed happy with it. atleast you get to see whats in front & around you. also more comfortable to bring you to the shops & playground with.
